I’ve been called a cool customer recently, by a lot of people. I always manage to internalize stress; I can always have a smile and act calm when the world is storming around me. I often don’t show the emotion I’m feeling.
Wondering how this translates to my dating pattern, my interaction with the not so cool customers out there. I’m happy that I can control my outlook on life, at times anyway, that’s why my experience, the withdrawing from Celexa was traumatic. I spent a lot of time at home.
At drinks with a friend, who’s known me for three years now. As life has changed for me, she says that she’s found me more resolved and more dynamic; she even used the words “close to normal”. She knows me to well.
The toll that sacrificing my soul to a corporation so early in life, the tax it’s had on me. It’s been many years and I still don’t know. As I look back on my cool customer days the days when I was barely even able to shine a smile or a frown and always needed to be pleasant.
I also found that trait in the manager that gave me such a difficult time on my exit from The Modern. I find that characteristic in lots of business people that have to dole bad news on a regular basis. I feel now, after all these years, I can be a little less chill and allow just a little more of myself to shine through. If only in baby steps of healing.
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