It’s as if the city is breathed a sigh of relief. The shopping is done and we are free to look to the New Year. Christmas has gone without a hitch, I’m sure there are burnt turkeys out there and people improvising, Yet, I have spent too much time thinking about the past. This is the first Christmas where I have started to build new traditions into my life. I’m looking to the future. Yes it’s hard to survive this holiday when family forgets to call me and I’m disowned by most of it. Yet I spent the holiday with a wonderful group of friends, I got to cook gorgeous food which everyone enjoyed eating and I delighted many.
I’m glad that my friends are still with me after all this time. That despite the coldness I experience from family, I have New York and this wonderful city to save me. I’m thankful for the first time in a long time. I accept the small joys; that come with life am truly starting to grow.
Christmas seems to not only be the time of old memories, but old boyfriends as well. In the month of December quite a few have text messaged me or emailed. It’s as though they checked in, to make sure I was the same person. When I responded with cheerful positive messages, they went away; the ghosts of memories taken with them.
This New Year, I have much in store. I’m looking forward to January and the snow, it gives me a good excuse to stay inside, write, and save some money. I’ll actually be able to get the Kitchen Aide Mixer I’ve always wanted. Make some chocolate chip cookies. I wonder what the future has in store. I’m glad to finally start to leave the past behind and find that new and more wonderful memories await.
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